Statement

Sketching is a risk- taking effort and one of faith because by their very nature, sketches bring our ideas to the forefront quickly and truthfully and often lead to inspiration. These pieces were my way of sketching for three months and exploring various media.
There is a place off the archipelago of Turks and Caicos where one can dive into water so blue that it is impossible to see where the color ends or starts.  One is completely enveloped by a light blue space that is infinite in every direction.  It becomes difficult to find the surface when coming up for air. At this moment beauty and anxiety fuse together and the relief is welcoming when one breaches the water. At the same time one longs to return to the silent weightless Big Blue where all our senses are wrapped in blue.
            Many of us have a strong emotional reaction to color and this phenomenon has been of interest to me for the past several years. For this exhibition, I explored the color blue. What happens when one stares into various shades of blue? What are the thoughts and sounds that enter one’s mind with each color? What occurs when they are combined? This interest led me to work with Dr. Pedja Neskovic, and graph my brain’s visual and cognitive response to cerulean blue, cobalt blue and indigo blue. The results in the brain graphs for each color were very different.
The color blue can refer to melancholia as in “I have the blues.” I therefore tracked my thoughts every day for three months and tied a knot in a piece of cotton-braided string when I would have a “blue” thought.
My large drawings in this exhibition in which I used a variety of blues were created with two disparate emotions in mind as were the videos I created. The glass knots I made reflect our fragile emotions.
All of The Big Blue pieces, including the dance performance, encompass various states of mind. Infinite shades of blue are possible as are the infinite realms of the uncharted mind. 

Monitoring how my brain reacted to three different shades of blue
The Big Blue
2009
Mixed media
Installation view of The Big Blue, Roger Williams University Exhibition Gallery, Bristol, R.I.
Knots
Dyed string and woodcut
Knots
2009
Woodcut
96" x 36"
Installation view, Glass knots, Brain Waves, video, Woman in Ocean
Brainwaves
2009
Plexiglass and spray paint
My brain waves were recorded looking at three various blues.
Brainwaves
2009
Plexiglass and spray paint
Installation view of The Big Blue
Installation view with Untitled, Glass knots, Person, Blue Paint Balls, Brain Wave
Blue Shield and glass Knots
Human brain
Blue Shield and Untitled
2008-2009
Both works in private collections
Blue Shield, human brain, and Woman in the Ocean
2009
Woman in the Ocean, foreground
Woman in the Ocean
2009
Glass 14" x 6" x 5"
Detail of face of Woman in the Ocean
2009
Glass
Blue Paintballs
2009
ink and blue paintballs
drawing was created and then shot with paintballs
Student viewing Blue Paintballs
Wire Person
2009
Wire, twine, and painted paper
14" x 8" x 4"
Wire Person, detail
Blue Paintballs and The Big Blue video
Knots
2009
glass
Private collection
Glass Knots
Glass Knots, detail
Knots and Thoughts, Brain Wave and student
Brainwave
2009
Foam, spray paint
Brainwave in the background, Knots and Thoughts in the foreground
Brainwave
2009
Foam and spray paint
50" x 36" x 30"
Knots and Thoughts
2009
twine dyed in three colors, paper, wire
For three months each day I carried a piece of twine in my pocket and tied a knot when I had a blue thought
Untitled
2008
Inks, graphite on paper
44" x 44"
Private collection
Dancers performing Knots
Dancers performing Knots